A lot has changed. I am now telling people that the way things currently are is going to be the new normal for the next 1-2 years. Masks, social distancing, uncertainty, fear. Everyone is suffering. The poor are broke. The workers are terrified. The medicine is both stupid easy and rediculously complicated. I have witnessed first hand the suffering that comes w trying to determine who may potentially benefit from a treatment vs predicting who may be one day in the very near future be on the verge of death.
I sat outside tonight after a shift. The air had that moist cool smell of summer. Made me think of drinking 40s by the creek. That made me sad. Nostalgia makes me sad presently. It use to be my salvation. aka.net exists to promote nostalgia. But today was unfathomable 25weeks ago. And 30 years ago the present was a singular point of nonexistance. How are kids tolerating Now. They aren't. And we cannot blame them. We shouldn't blame them. They are doing how they do. A true leader would tell them to at least stay away from anyone at risk. I try to say this. But I am just one person with access to a couple hundred; maybe a thousand others. We need someone who has the ear of billions.
School will 'start' back up in just a couple more days. As of today the first day of school will be the alarm going off and waking to meet your new classmates via zoom. No word if the educators have anything planned. Lots of, 'it is up to someone else.' We laughed this weekend when thinking about how as Gen-X we were brought up on, "stay home alone; don't answer the door; poor milk on this powder and it will turn into food." And we are currently 'ok'. So today's kids of will be fine. Just sucks for them. They have no outlet. They are trying to become individuals, develop their own identity via online communication. It is hard to be an individual who stands out when you represent as squeaky voice in a set of headphones.
Madi Blaze, our new puppy doesn't give a shit about any of this.
Today I feel like I might survive for now.
But flu season may
not be possible.